I will be graduating with my second master’s degree in about 10 months. That means I need to have a job in less time than that. We could probably survive for a little while without any income from me, but it would not be ideal for a few reasons. I would be a panicky, snappy mess and then finances would get tight.
To attempt to prevent these problems, I have been sprucing up my resume, contacting my references and getting prepared to job search. If I enter the job market sooner rather than later, there will be less lag between school and job.
There is one problem with this. When I try to start job searching, I get a constricting feeling in my chest. The insides of me start trying to crawl out my throat and scream at me that they want to be free. I am overwhelmed by how small I am, insecurity and the lack of confidence I feel with this whole process. I am an educated, smart woman, but looking at job listings has me whittled down to a mess.